"There are sober children in china"

No matter what’s happening in your life, there are good things happening as well. We just tend to gloss over the good things and focus on the negative.


I need to learn to appreciate what I already have, pay more attention to what is working in my life.

I often try to remind my self that other people have had it worse than me.


It's hard though.


When you feel so low.


I miss my mom a lot today.

The thrill of the adventure is the journey

Some people exude negativity. They don’t like their jobs or they don’t like their company. I work with one of these people, personally it's not my favorite flavor of Kool Aid.

Her sudden mood swings instantly put everyone on edge, it seems she would poke her nose in to other peoples business just for the sake of causing trouble. She always seems so frustrated and angry with the world, like anything anyone does is done on purpose or they are out to get her.

I do admit sometimes her arguments are right on and sometimes she’s just nit picking. Sometimes when she’s especially angry about something and she’s not getting the answer she wants she’ll continue on for ever about it. Our company is so big and we can only do so much to get them to listen to us. I don’t agree with everything the company is doing but they are going to continue with their efforts whether I like it or not. When she continues to berate every coworker that crosses her path or doesn’t agree with her, the wrong message gets portrayed and then the company is definitely not going to want to listen to our complaints.

I know my coworker on a personal side too, and I know she’s been through a lot in the seven years I’ve worked with her. I’m not saying she’s a bad person, outside of work we get along great; it’s just the constant criticizing at work and her continuous pessimism start to take toll. Especially when you work ten-hour days with this person four days out of the week. There’s no getting around this, everyone becomes effected in someway or another.

I’ve gone off track from what I really wanted to portray in this blog. I’m not trying to throw at you all my frustration and annoyance, if that were the case I’d be just like her.

I wanted to share with you that it's thanks to this coworker's radiant negativity that I have become so resilient in my life here at work. That and I believe I inherited a good size portion of it from my mom.

All day everyday sitting here listening to her complain. I’ve learned the more time you talk about, think about, and complain about the bad things that are happening to you, the more time you are wasting.

I discovered that I love the chaos and the challenge of learning new things and multi tasking. It creates an almost superior “know it all”, power hungry feeling in me. I see a challenge and I don’t freak out, instead I look at it and see how I can become better as a result of this challenge whether it be good, bad, personal, or professional.

I’ve become more confident about my work and I feel more positive on my decisions during an irregular day.

I keep getting distracted and loosing my train of thought I never said I had mastered this all yet, I am still just as scattered as ever and on my 12th hour of work for the day. So I will end with a note from my aunt’s human resource group

Resiliency is the ability to accept who you are, where you are, for what you are and to move on with a positive attitude. Resiliency will get you through these difficult times. You can choose to be resilient or choose to be a victim. What's your choice?

It's like an old friend that I lost touch with, I miss drawing.

I used to draw cartoon people all the time on my free time at work. I found a bunch that are all a few years old but I thought I might share with everyone my findings. I think I should start drawing again, it's been too long.

Comic book character ideas

Ha ha ha, that one was supposed to be a version of me.

That picture was from my mom's old PURE 70's CD album insert.

This was my cousin Nicky Noodle as a rebel youngster....

another version of me.

Ha yeah, this is me and the man of my dreams.

This is supposed to be my cousin Christopher [the one with the hawk.]

[I shrunk them all to fit on the blog with out taking up so much space.]

found this today...

I found this picture of my mom today, I had forgotten about this one. Something about it I like! I think I like it because if you look at mom she looks healthy there and happy. She doesn't have the "moon face" from the chemo, or that rash that she got, she looks pretty normal. Although the picture itself is a little dark and hard to see. I still like it. Makes me get wattery eyes looking at it. I miss her.